bad books – you're a mirror i cannot avoid

ps i knew eventually you would disappear. just come back & peel away the mask. turn back to the person that you tried to let die...

i caught you caroling and giving grief
thought you were cannonballing after me
i let your actions speak for themselves
and wished you well

but you're a mirror i cannot void
strung out and jittery and paranoid
a leaky battery that cant keep charged
get in the car and say what you mean
explain yourself to me and i'll try not to judge you more than you would

let me help, i promise not to tell
like anyones asking or anyone should

first time i met you i was full of fear
knew that eventually youd disappear
just when i needed you youd burn to smoke
and off you go

just come back and peel away the mess
lay here beside me and open your eyes
take it back your dignity your tact
turn back to the person you tried to let die

i caught you nesting with your analog
glassy eyes from kissing poison frogs
becoming infinite against his couch

open your mouth and say the words
you used to wish you heard
back when you focused enough to be good

and if youre gone
an endless false alarm
just remember i loved you
as long as i could